Anonymous asked: It doesn't excuse Coulson's behaviour. He's been nothing but cruel to May and he's acting like a fucking ass. She protected him and only because seem to have a soft spot for poor brainwashed guys doesn't make him right.
To borrow the words of my dear, beloved Captain: “Son, just … don’t.”
No, seriously. Don’t. Don’t try to argue with me. I swear to you, you will lose. My insecurities stop at my reasoning skills. You still wanna have a go? Well, fine.
I could disqualify this whole message with just one single sentence: You have not read my post properly.
Go back and read it again, sentence for sentence. I literally said, that I’m not excusing or condoning his behaviour, that I recognise, that he has been unfair and even cruel. I wouldn’t go so far as to say he’s acted like an arse, because I generally keep those strong words for people, who do cruel and stupid things despite knowing better.
Bringing in my roleplaying character in a conversation, that has nothing to do with him kind of makes you look petty and as if you are grasping for straws, to be honest. Apparently, you have no idea about my preferences, but hey, let’s leave that out, shall we? Let’s have a serious discussion, like adults. I know, that might be a hard thing to do, but bear with me, k?
As I said before: Yes, Coulson is acting unfair towards May especially, but it is a human reaction to lash out. Take the time and actually look at what the man has been through. He’s been bearing all of that, the lies, the torture, the experiments, the secrets, with the proverbial stiff upper lip. He’s plowed on, because he’s always thought, that the cause SHIELD is fighting for is more important, than his own fait.
This is the man, who’s gone toe to toe with a half-crazed God! Carrying a weapon, where he had NO idea, what it’ll do! Because anything he could do, even if it might fail, even if it might kill him, would be better, than just standing by.
He’s dedicated his life to SHIELD and protecting the people. It’s his purpose. And when HYDRA came out of the woodwork and destroyed SHIELD, his porpose was ripped from him. He’s reeling. He doesn’t know what to do anymore or who to believe. His search for Fury is, first and foremost, a search for a purpose again.
When he says “We are Agents of SHIELD, that means something, that has to mean something.”, that is what he means. It HAS to mean something, or everything he’s ever worked for, everything he’s died and suffered for, is null and void.
Tell me, honestly, if someone took away your entire purpose and told you it was all a lie all along, wouldn’t you act out?
Is there one single person out there, who has NEVER lashed out at someone, who’s wanted to help them, if they were in pain? Phil Coulson is hurting, he’s a wounded animal and that makes him irrational and cruel, but his reaction also makes him terribly human and I applaud the writers for going that route!
[FUCKING THANK YOU
People have been shitting on Coulson since the episode aired and seriously, yeah, he’s lost it a little, but he just found out he’s been living in nothing but LIES since he came back to work. ESPECIALLY from May. They may have been trying to protect him but he doesn’t know that. He doesn’t know anything for sure anymore. Everything is crumbling. And no, he shouldn’t have lashed out, but that whole speech was so real and powerful to me. So desperate.
Thank you for this. Thank you so much.]
Totally this. That speech blew me away, not just because the acting was the best yet but because it was the HEART of Phil Coulson, laid out for everyone to see. With everything he’s gone through, this is the closest we’ve seen him come to breaking but he pulled HIMSELF back from the brink because that is ALSO the heart of Phil Coulson, to hold it together for the good of others.
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“Reports are rolling in. There were six ‘paint bombs’ in all, though it appears that the ones sent off-site contained something closer to a powder than paint. Easier clean up, for the most part.” Hill didn’t look up from her tablet. “Stark will have to do some work to smooth feathers when this is over, but the damage is minimal.”
Fury gave a snort, staring out the window at the city below. “He’s not the only one.” He leaned forward, bracing one hand against the window. “We having any luck pinning down how he’s controlling the armors?”
“He cleared out most of our active duty tech support staff,” Hill said. “The few that escaped the original attacks are working on triangulating his location, but the suits appear to be part of a closed circuit system. Which could mean that Stark, or even Jarvis, is controlling them all remotely, or it could mean-”
“That he’s in one.” Fury reached up, rubbing hard at the bridge of his nose. “Take them all out.”
“He’s made no move towards this level again,” she pointed out.
“Rules are, he’s gotta get my name plate in order to win.” Fury turned away from the window, reaching a hand out as he crossed the office. Hill handed over the tablet as he stalked by. “He’ll come. Right now, he’s playing. Let’s make that painful for him.”
Fury collapsed into his chair. “And move with the contingency plan.”
The beat of a pause before Hill said, “Yes, sir,” was almost nonexistent. Anyone who wasn’t intimately familiar with her wouldn’t have noticed it at all.
Phil knew her very, very well.
Eeeeeeeeeeeee, loved this, loved it , loved it!